If there’s one phrase that I’ve noticed I say more than any other, it’s this one.
“I do what I can.”
I’ve come to realize, however, that it’s just another way for me to avoid taking a compliment. A cover.
Generally speaking, people meet me and assume that I have a grandiose amount of confidence. They see the girl who speaks her mind and doesn’t seem to give a care about what anyone else thinks. But their eyes are new — they haven’t experienced who I really am or how I really feel about the things around me.
If I try hard enough, I will believe that I my hard work doesn’t really deserve recognition.
I just do.
I do what I can for the benefit of others.
And I think I might be okay with that.
I’ve gotten better in the past few months, but I hope that one day I can just take a compliment for what it is — I don’t have to analyze them, and I don’t have to question whether or not I actually deserve it.
But until I get to that point, I’ll continue to work hard to make others happy — their smiles make it worth it. 🙂